So here it is New Year’s Eve. I use to really dislike New Year’s Eve because I was sad to see the year end. I think it was because I was worried that it would never be that good again.
This year was so good, my best ever, with so many ups and downs, but I felt more in control of my life than ever before. It took a lot of digging deep to get to know myself and to be brave and take chances for for more and better for myself. Being afraid to lose things was tethering me to an l absolute and sometimes to the past. I could get a tear pretty easy letting myself think of those things that are part of my past now never to be the same again, but I focus on the now instead. Because life is a pattern of ups and downs I don’t get too secure in the ups now and I don’t let myself feel hopeless in the down times because life will keep going it’s same usual way. I savor every moment no matter how things are going. I learn in those down times how impressed I am with my dear heart. I never knew it had so much width and depth. No matter how much I plot and plan things tend to go their own way and so l don’t expect anything. What I do now is make easy and hard decisions that are as right as they can be and try not to spend the time I use to making those decisions. I’m ok with mistakes
now. The overthinking had to go and I am better for it. This year I don’t have any resolutions, I don’t wait for a new year to improve myself, the time is always now for me. I don’t know where my life will land me this next year, but I am sure it will be full of surprises, sadness, hope and love. My intension is to not waste moment of it on trivial things. I am so grateful that when I listen to my intuition and say yes more than I say no it gets me farther in my life than the times I was trying to be perfect. I’m am ready for more meaning, more mistakes, lots of laughter and even the tears are ok. I have really enjoyed getting to know so many people around the world here on Instagram and it has renewed my faith in mankind. Thank you all for supporting me and for so much kindness and laughter. Happy New Year!
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Cari